Emotionally, I bounced between anger and tears.
Physically, I bounced between pacing and flailing my arms like an angry Greek, and curling into a ball on my bed.
Spiritually, I bounced between sin and repentance, intentionally refusing to take my thoughts captive so my anger would not be abated, and crying out to the Lord for forgiveness.
The day was long, my emotions were raw, and my mind would not quiet itself.
He stepped in and spoke the words be still to my anxious, fret-filled, chaotic heart - and all was calm.
No more anger. No more tears.
And as He often does, He used music to minister to me.
I know this song well, but when I heard it today while lamenting on a drive to pick up children, it was as if I was hearing it for the first time.
I was both broken and buoyed by the lyrics because they reminded me that even if the whole world is against me, I have everything because I have Christ.
And now, after the 17th repeat of listening to this beautiful truth, and a long walk with my husband, I am not only at peace.
I am content.
"Only You" - David Crowder
Take my heart, I lay it down
At the feet of You who is crowned
Take my life, I'm letting go
I lift it up to You who is throned
And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord
Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, I'm leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
Be all my delights, be my everything
And It's just you and me here now
Only You and me here now
You should see the view
When it's only You