I love it - but not enough.

Make sure Satan has to climb over a lot of Scripture to get to you.
- John MacArthur

I LOVE this quote!
And I am incredibly convicted by it.

When I was in college, the Lord challenged me to memorize Scripture and I pursued the challenge with focused intensity. I had a dozen large rings filled with hundreds of verses written out on colored index cards, and I carried them with me wherever I went. I had grown weary of memorizing verses solely for the sake of memorizing. I wanted the effort to go toward passages that hit me in the center of my current struggles and sin. It seemed logical, so I became prescriptive about the verses I chose to memorize. 

If I was feeling convicted about gossiping with friends, I looked up every verse on gossip and added them to a ring. If I was battling envy or jealousy, I looked up all of those verses and slipped the cards on another ring. And on and on it went. In the beginning, pulling out the cards to read them in between classes, in the cafeteria, while waiting for an appointment, or just to be faithful to memorize the verses took effort and planning, but it was not long before it became a regular part of my day. I kept a ring of cards in my purse, in my school bag, on my desk, and in my car so I had no excuse NOT to read. Most of my spare moments were used to flip through card after card, and sooner than I had expected, the verses would float through my mind without any prompting - just when I needed them most. It was incredibly exciting, and the ability to draw God's Word from my own mind became something I wanted more than anything else.

As wonderful as it was to have dozens of verses stored up in my heart, there was also an adjustment period. Claiming ignorance of God's Word is an easy out. Any sin can be justified when knowledge is lacking. But once we are aware - we are accountable.
I remember thinking, "Wow. Now that I know fourteen verses about discontentment, I am never going to be able to justify it because God's Word will be banging against my conscience. I will be willfully choosing to sin!"
Stumbling into sin is one thing. Purposely walking to the edge of the cliff and jumping into sin is quite another.
I still wrestle with this. Even more so now because I have had an additional 25 years to memorize Scripture since my college days. Sometimes, the clarity of the verse sounds so loud and strong in my mind that I turn my head expecting to see the Lord standing right behind me! I hate those moments because it is evident that I want my sin more than I want my Savior, but I also love those moments because I can hear His words as clearly as if He was whispering in my ear, "Daughter, please. Please, don't do this! Stop your thoughts. Walk away. It's not worth it. Look at Me, and do not look away until the temptation no longer has a grip on you." I have stored up Your word in my heart, that I might not sin against You. Psalm 119:11  

Make sure Satan has to climb over a lot of Scripture to get to you.

I love my Bible.
But I do not love it enough.
The spine is still intact. The cover is not worn dull. The pages are not bleeding with ink from my pen.
I have not read it enough, prayed over it enough, wept with it enough, or applied it the way God intended. All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, equipped for every good work.
II Timothy 3:16,17

I want my Bible to be the most used item I possess, and it's content the largest part of my vocabulary.

Father, may the heart of Your servant who penned these words become my own ... 
I will meditate on Your precepts and fix my eyes on Your ways.
I will delight in Your statutes; I will not forget Your word. Psalm 119:15, 16

This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. Joshua 1:8

Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. Psalm 119:105 

But he answered, “It is written, “‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.’” Matthew 4:4

For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart. Hebrews 4:12

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