Do you ever feel like you are being pulled between the Lord and the enemy like a piece of taffy?
The enemy's purpose is evil, of course, but the Lord has a plan that is for His glory and your good?
I feel like that now.
At war within myself, not doing what I should do, and doing what I should not - just like Paul expresses in Romans 7. That dizzying passage where he reminds us that though our heart and mind want to live righteously, we continue to dwell in a sinful body that will always seek to have its own way. And that way always pulls in the opposite direction of the Lord.
Today, I met a friend at the park while twelve children ran around us. After settling into our chairs, I looked at her and asked, "So, how are you, friend?"
I tipped my head to one side while glancing at her oddly, fully understanding that feeling of having no idea how to answer such a vague question because there are too many things going on at once when she looked at me and started laughing.
"I have no idea how to answer that question!"
She started to unravel the answer, and by the time she finished I said, "Wow. I totally get that! I feel like my prayers don't even count right now."
She turned her head to me quickly, eyes large, and replied, "Yes! That is EXACTLY how I feel!"
We engaged in an encouraging conversation after that, loosely following the Romans 7 outline, confessing our struggles, and sharing our frustration with our flesh. Later, we traded texts promising to pray for the other one when apathy creeps it's suffocating fingers around our spiritual throats.
How thankful I am that the Lord does not ask us to walk the Christian life alone!
The enemy may drool over me every morning seeking to devour me, but because God created the body of Christ, that lion will never find me without a fellow soldier willing to draw her sword on my behalf.
Thank You, Lord, for such a wonderful promise!
Two are better than one,
Because they have a good reward for their labor.
For if they fall, one will lift up his companion.
But woe to him who is alone when he falls,
For he has no one to help him up.
Again, if two lie down together, they will keep warm;
But how can one be warm alone?
Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.