A woman recently requested our hand-written miscarriage notes for her best friend, and in her request, she included a paragraph giving details of the miscarriage, and a beautiful description of her friend. I smiled as I read it, praising God for providing someone who desired to minister to this hurting woman in a way that mattered.
There was one line that grabbed my attention and has been dominating my thoughts for days.
She wrote, "She is a fierce lover of the Lord ..."
A fierce lover of the Lord.
How does someone earn such a title?
faith and trust in God,
ability to forgive wrongdoing,
ability to love her enemies,
compassion for the hurting,
passion for the unsaved,
sincerity of worship,
godly humility ...
each of these character qualities must be a tangible reflection of her Savior and so consume her that people cannot tell where she ends - and He begins.
How did she become such a woman?
There is only one way.
And He answered, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.” Deuteronomy 6:5
If we love the Lord with ALL of our heart/soul/mind/strength - we are totally incapable of loving ourselves. Looks, race, intelligence, our 'rights', bank accounts, accomplishments, ideologies, opinions, preferences, and personal desires have no space available on the throne of our hearts when it is filled with the presence of the Savior.
John Calvin said, "Man's heart, so to speak, is a perpetual factory of idols!"
He also said, "The human heart has so many crannies where vanity hides, so many holes where falsehood works, and is so decked out with deceiving hypocrisy - that it often dupes itself!"
And he's right.
Idol-crushing must be a daily discipline in the life of a believer.
We cannot love the Lord with all of our heart, soul, mind, and strength when we are busy loving ourselves first, and best.
"She is a fierce lover of the Lord ..."
It is the desire of my heart to be a woman such as this. But it will not just "happen." It requires daily surrender. Constant examination of heart and mind. A desire for holiness more than happiness, and an all-consuming knowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord of ALL.
Oh, Lord, how much I have to learn and how much I need to grow. Transform me and renew my mind so any desire for Self will disappear, and be forever replaced with a desire for only YOU.