2.26.2016

The waiting is over!

Though the nurse told me I would know the results of my breast biopsy next week, the Lord decided to end the waiting and reveal the answer today.
I do not have breast cancer!

I will give thanks to the Lord according to His righteousness,
and will sing praise to the name of the Lord Most High. Psalm 7:17

My favorite word of this verse is HIS.
"I will give thanks to the Lord according to HIS righteousness."
We do not give thanks according to our emotions or what we feel "should be."
We give thanks, in all things, BECAUSE He is God and He deserves our praise - regardless of the circumstances.
When I wrestled with the Lord on the radiology table, I knew that surrendering to Him included praising Him even if I was told, "You have breast cancer."
I had to settle that.
If the news is good, I will give thanks to You with a grateful heart, Lord!
If the news is bad, I will give You thanks with a grateful heart, Lord!
I have to.
There simply is no other way.
Though He slay me, I will hope in Him. Job 13:15
May those who fear You rejoice when they see me,
for I have put my hope in Your word.
I know, Lord, that Your laws are righteous,
and that in faithfulness You have afflicted me. Psalm 119:74,75


Today was a good day for our family.
When I told Dennis, he sucked in his breath, grabbed my hands, and buried his face in them for a long time. When he looked up he had tears in his eyes and proclaimed, "Thank You, Lord for sparing my wife!"
Micah smiled a big smile and gave me a high-five.
Luke did an enthusiastic fist pump and shouted with joy.
Caleb nearly collapsed in my arms with relief.
Today we experienced the very real truth of the verse, "Rejoice with those who rejoice!" as our family and friends shared in our joy.

But ...
Today was not a good day of rejoicing for others.
A husband started chemo, a child is recovering from surgery, a woman miscarried her much longed-for baby, a father lost his job, a daughter buried her mother.
People are hurting.
People are scared.
People are broken.
"Weep with those who weep."

There is beauty in this verse:
Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep. Romans 12:15

Isn't that wonderful?
Everyone is in a different place in life - seasons of joy and seasons of sorrow.
Yet God commands us to rejoice and weep - TOGETHER.
We can cry with one friend while celebrating with another.
We can cover our pillow with tears while encouraging someone else.
We can praise God for His goodness while comforting a hurting heart.
It is the way of life. And it is good.

I promised the Lord I would have pink tulips in my house every week if I had cancer - to remind me that I surrendered to Him fully and completely after our wrestling match on the table.
But, I don't have cancer.
So today I made a yearly date on my calendar, every February, "Buy pink tulips to remember the goodness of the Lord!"

And now, because I do not have to spend my days focusing on doctor visits and treatments and physical trials for my own health, I can focus on serving those who do.

Thank You, Lord, for letting the waiting end.
Thank You for the lessons IN the waiting.
And I pray You will continue to strengthen, grow, and mature me so no matter what lies ahead I am always willing to say, "BLESSED be Your name, O Lord!"

1 comment:

PAtty said...

Praise the Lord!!!!
I am soooo grateful for this news it was like taking in a breathe of fresh air!!
Thank you for your last email, we are all doing great too. Tomorrow we are celebrating my oldest son's 8 birthday and we are grateful for 8 years together, good health, and the gift of a family of 5 :)
God bless you and thank you for letting us share in the joy with you!!