5.03.2015

There is purpose in the pain. And I will still praise Him!

This morning I worshiped the Lord with my brothers and sisters in Christ ~ at church!
What a joy it was to be back after such a long absence!
We arrived earlier than usual so I spent almost 30 minutes sitting quietly in the nearly-empty sanctuary reading Scripture and grateful for the peace and solitude of that time.
How good God is to meet such simple needs!

The service was wonderful, a communion Sunday, and the message was unexpected and thought-provoking. I love leaving church with hundreds of thoughts to ponder!

I was not prepared, however, for what was to come in the second service while worshiping with the youth group.
I greeted students and hugged my friends, smiling and enjoying the chaos and youthful energy that swirls through the youth area in abundance.
And then it was time for worship.
The first song was beautiful and drew us into His presence.
The next song cracked the shell that has been protecting my heart this past month and refused to let the emotions remain tucked away any longer. I stopped singing to let the tears fall until I realized they would overwhelm me ... and it was not the place for me to fall apart. But it was the time for me to let the Lord work in a worn and weary heart that has endured much this past month.
The tears fell, my shoulders shook, and my heart felt relieved to finally release what has been building for so long.
Thank You, Lord, for knowing what I need before I do ~ and taking me where I need to go at the precise moment I need to be there.

One of my girls was sitting next to me, and after keeping my head down and sniffing repeatedly, she pulled my hair back to see my face and whispered, "Are you okay?"
I shook my head, and she wrapped her arms around me ... and did not let me go until worship was over.
What a precious moment that was. 
She saw me, the one who is usually looking into the eyes full of tears, broken and hurting ~ and she did not hesitate to love me.
How sweet the discipleship relationship is.
Both give and take  - both comfort and rejoice - both love, and receive love.
I will never forget her tender hug ... and I will always praise God for blessing me with the privilege of having these young women in my life. How much I need them!

I pray this song will be a source of comfort to another hurting heart.
The lyrics are straight from the Book of Job ... and they speak truth.
There IS purpose in our pain. And He IS all we need.

Though You Slay Me

I come, God, I come
I return to the Lord
The one who's broken
The one who's torn me apart
You struck down to bind me up
You say You do it all in love
That I might know You in Your suffering

Though You slay me
Yet I will praise You
Though You take from me
I will bless Your name
Though You ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who's all I need

My heart and flesh may fail
The earth below give way
But with my eyes, with my eyes I'll see the Lord
Lifted high on that day
Behold, the Lamb that was slain
And I'll know every tear was worth it all

Though You slay me
Yet I will praise You
Though You take from me
I will bless Your name
Though You ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who's all I need

Though tonight I'm crying out
Let this cup pass from me now
You're still all that I need
You're enough for me
You're enough for me

Though You slay me
Yet I will praise You
Though You take from me
I will bless Your name
Though You ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who's all I need
Sing a song to the one who's all I need

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