11.04.2013

My trust can only be - in HIM.

I shared about my struggle with FEAR recently and how the Lord completely erased all of my fear after confessing my sin to my husband and praying for the Lord to remove it so I would trust only in Him.

Every morning since then, when I wake up after a deep and restful night of sleep, I thank Him - and praise Him for being faithful.  It is a feeling I never want to lose - the feeling of PEACE.  And not just any peace ... the peace that surpasses all understanding because it is granted by the only One who can offer such a wonderful gift.

I thought the Lord was finished with this lesson, so imagine my surprise when our Scripture study for Sunday morning was this passage:

Unless the Lord builds the house,
They labor in vain who build it;
Unless the Lord guards the city,
The watchman stays awake in vain.

It is vain for you to rise up early,
To sit up late,
To eat the bread of sorrows;
For so He gives His beloved sleep.
Psalm 127: 1-2

Isn't that fantastic?!?  I smiled as soon as I read it knowing the Lord was confirming everything He has been teaching me the past week.  I love when He does that!

I have read this passage many times, but I am usually focusing on the "building of the house" portion as it pertains to family and home life.  This time, I soaked in the rest ... the vanity of trying to guard and protect our little sphere of life, rising early to make sure all is well, staying up late to ensure that nothing goes awry, worrying about the 'what ifs' ... the futility of it all.  Because - it is the LORD who builds our house, it is the LORD who protects it, it is the LORD who watches over every detail, and it is the LORD who grants us peace and contentment to go to sleep each night knowing that He is fully capable, and in control.

"He gives His beloved sleep."  What a lovely phrase!

As much as I loathed walking in the sin of fear far longer than I desired, I am thankful the Lord opened my eyes to the truth and reminded me that I belong to a God who cares about my heart and my mind.  He does not want me to walk in fear.  He commands me not to walk in fear!  He tells me in His Word that fear does not come from Him, for He is a God of peace and gentleness.  But instead of dragging me to Himself, He kept nudging me gently ... prodding me ... asking me to look up at Him ... until I finally obeyed and saw what I had been missing.  I forgot who my God was because I was too busy looking at, and listening to, the details of the world and all of the heartache and trials it has to offer.  But once I looked at HIM - and saw the tenderness, the love, the care, and the desire He has for me as His child to trust Him, with all of my being, the fears vanished, and I was left with peace, contentment, and trust - knowing that nothing can happen to me, to my husband, to my children - without the hand of the Lord allowing it, and doing so with a Divine purpose that will refine me, and bring glory to Him.

Thank You, Lord!  Thank You for reminding me where I need to take all of my fears, and where I need to place my trust.  Only ... in You.

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