It has to be Christ.
It always has to be CHRIST.
If God is not a God of fear then there is only one other place fear can be born ~ and then put into and nurtured in the heart and mind of a believer.
The pit of hell.
The father of lies.
The prowling lion.
The accuser of the brethren.
And I refuse to be ruled by him.
Once I stopped looking for the "why" of the darkness, I was able to identify the "who" of the darkness. And you know what? That was all it took. I know who I am fighting. He is an enemy who will never go away, he will never stop trying to annihilate me, and I will have to keep fighting him with every ounce of strength I have until Christ returns or takes me home. The battle will rage day after day after day because he will never quit.
And neither will I.
Satan has dozens of ways he enjoys attacking me, but this one, the fear and the unrest, is the attack I hate the most. My confidence is brought low because I know I am not standing firm and holding my ground to win the battle. I have to fight to drag my thoughts back to the Savior. Sometimes moment by moment. And I hate it. I hate that it can take me days to get my mind stayed on Him. I hate that satan can still sneak in and catch me off guard and pull me down into the pit where I have to claw my way back to the top. But, there is some beauty in this fight because the Lord always brings me out of the dark pit - into the light - so I can once again see the One in whom all my strength and hope is found.
It is Christ alone who can raise me up.
Christ alone who can make me strong.
Christ alone Who is ~
I have to be on my guard c o n s t a n t l y to thwart the attacks of satan to take over my mind and fill it with things that are not of God. When he can make me worry about "what ifs" and things I cannot control, my focus is taken off of Christ and is now completely on self. And satan wins.
I will NOT lose this fight.
And the only way I can win is to be fully prepared for battle. I have to guard my mind with the best things. The things of Christ. TRUTH. And truth can only be found in one place ... Scripture.
Scripture. Perfect, infallible, God-breathed, and it is ~
I know that You can do all things, and that no purpose of Yours can be thwarted. Job 42:2
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—His good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Philippians 4:8
We are destroying speculations and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. II Corinthians 10:5
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6,7
You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.
Therefore if you have been raised up with Christ, keep seeking the things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth. Colossians 3:1,2
This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. Joshua 1:8
I have set the Lord always before me; because He is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.